Sunday, May 15, 2011

At last...


I am finally posting. I wish I were so delinquent for a good reason, like, say, traveling 7,000 miles across the globe to bring my babies home but not so. We're still waiting.

Thank you to those who checked up on me. I'm sorry I've been absent. It's been a strange time to be blogging.

OK. Where have I been and what have I been doing?

The shower.

It was amazing. It was surreal. It was emotional. The love and support I felt in that room was intense and there is not much more I can say about it other than that. Thank you to those who were there, physically and in spirit. I never thought I'd have one, and now I have. I have to look at the pictures myself to see the proof.


(Sister, Mom, and then there's me--the shower was at my house. Check out all the desserts!)
The living room right before everyone got there. You can't see all of them but there were fresh flowers (tulips and gerberas, my favorites!) everywhere. I loved them and wish I was wealthy enough to have fresh flowers all the time!




My sister gave me lots of Curious George stuff, including this adorable onesie for the little man. But when she said she'd been holding on to some of it for six years, well, it brought on some ugly crying on my part (no pics will be shared of that, sorry to disappoint. Just imagine my face, all red and scrunched up and contorted and there you go.)

The nursery:

The nursery.is.finished. We here at the MTL house like a modern aesthetic, but we also wanted to incorporate Curious George. So there you go. It's tough to go in there but I do. I love it as a room, but it hurts right now. Every single day they are growing and changing and I'm not witnessing it. I get my weekly photo update if I'm lucky, and they (of course) continue to be beautiful and gorgeous and perfect and they are growing growing growing. But the truth is, they won't be little babies when we bring them home. I guess I just have to be content with the five days of holding little babies that I had nearly two months ago.


My favorites are the tree on the wall, the modern little rockers, the zig-zag shelf (bought four year ago, sheesh!) and the red polka dotted rugs, which didn't really show up in the pictures.

Mother's Day.

You know how there's that old saying you can't  be a 'little bit pregnant?' Well, it turns out you can be a "little bit of a Mother on Mother's Day." I mean, people kept whooping it up and giving me big Happy Mother's Day wishes which was super nice--don't get me wrong--but without them here it just felt empty. I realize I am closer than I have ever been and believe me when I say I am grateful beyond words to have the privilege of adopting my babies, but it wasn't like I got any sloppy sugars or cuddles with anyone other than my furbabies.  I wasn't in a dark state of despair like previous years, and that is something, but it wasn't exactly the most joyous of days.

I don't want to sound like a broken record but it's just tough right now. We're so close--so close--but yet still, literally so far away. They are legally ours but yet we have to go through a third party to get anything done--to get an updated height/weight takes an Act of Congress sometimes. To arrange for an extra doctor's visit took over three weeks. Three weeks! If they were here, if we were a family together here, I could have had it done lickety split. It's wearing on us both. We're trying to enjoy the last 'free weekends' and so we've been doing lots of running and enjoying the outdoors, and seeing friends and family, and zipping here and there but we're tired. We've been running this ultra-marathon for years and it's time to retire those shoes. I've got blisters on top of blisters on top of calluses. But my heart has gotten one million times stronger and bigger, it's just waiting to share itself with the babies.

Up next, their names. I promise I won't take so long this time.

37 comments:

  1. Awww...cute pics! So glad you had a nice shower and mother's day. You deserve it. I think of you guys often and hope things speed up for you.

    I recognize that zig zag shelf! We *had* one until last weekend when DH tried to put it up and it crashed to the floor and broke in half. :-/

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  2. yay, you're back to your blog! and awwww......your nursery is beyond fabulous!! i'm so excited and so very hopeful for you guys that the finish line is near!!

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  3. I'm so happy for you that you enjoyed your baby shower! Your nursery is beautiful. I love the tree with the bluebird.
    Amy x

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  4. I love your decorating style--your nursery is beautiful!!! And those desserts look amazing. Glad it was a good shower, and looking forward to learning their names. Come on, Embassy!

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  5. Oh, I was hoping you were going to say 'surprise, we're home!' Hoping you won't have much longer of thi awful in-between stage. Sounds like you're making good use of it though... your shower sounded like great fun!

    (and by the way... your house is GORGEOUS!)

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  6. Love the nursery! We are also modern-y, I've had my eye on the little eames rocker for a while...

    Just so thrilled for you!

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  7. What a beautiful shower and, what a beautiful home you have! Love what you've done with the nursery, and I can't wait to see picks of the little ones enjoying all their new things.

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  8. Love love love love love. Oh, and tears at the mere mention of those adorable outfits waiting 6 years on these babies.

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  9. Beautiful room! and, the shower sounds wonderful. I am dying to hear that they are home and in your arms. I can't imagine how hard it is to wait. I am praying that things speed up!

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  10. I am so happy you were able to enjoy your shower... I can only imagine how hard and amazing it was all at once. I am so sorry that those two little amazing miracles are still on the other side of the world. I hate that there is paperwork and bureaucracy keeping your family apart. I think of you often, my dear friend, and hope that one day very soon your two little ones will be snuggled in their beautiful nursery at HOME.

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  11. Love your house AND the nursery! So glad your shower was amazing...you so deserve that.

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  12. Wow, I love your house. Can I move in??? And the nursery is great. I hope you got to enjoy every moment of your baby shower and that somehow time passes quicker than it should. And the blisters on top of calluses on top of blisters sounds AWESOME!

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  13. Glad you had a great shower! I love your house and the nursery is cool! JulesH

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  14. Your resilience, strength, grace and perseverance astounds me. These two little beings are the luckiest babes on the planet. Once they are with you the time you spent waiting and "running in those shoes" will seem like a lifetime ago. I hope this time goes by as quickly as humanly possible.

    I am so, so glad that you had a wonderful shower - I wish I could have been there :)

    The nursery looks so inviting and the monkeys...I love it, I love it all!

    Keep your head up girl... your times a'comin!
    xox

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  15. Glad you are back and had a great shower! Your house is beautiful and I really like your cribs. What brand? Send me a private e-mail and let me know.

    T

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  16. love your pics and so glad you got to have real baby shower- you totally dersrve that. Cannot wait for those two little ones to be in that nursery.
    much love to you 4.

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  17. I'm not even into the "modern asthetic" and I LOVE your place!!! You have fabulous taste and your natural talent obviously lies in awesome decor. Soon...very soon...life will be exactly as it should and things will be so much more right with the world than you ever imagined they could be. I can't wait until you're there!

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  18. Love your house! And the nursery. And that you had a shower!

    I don't love that you are still waiting, I can't wait until this chapter ends and the next one begins...

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  19. i'm so glad to see an update from you. i have been thinking of you, especially around mother's day. i can imagine how it must feel to know that they are yours but that they are there and you are here. i hope and pray that you are united soon.

    so happy you enjoyed your baby shower and felt all of the love you so deserve. the nursery looks great...it looks like a fun place to be!!

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  20. I'm so happy you enjoyed your shower and your nursery looks perfect!
    I'm happy to hear from you too.

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  21. OMGoodness, my heart skipped a beat when I read the title, I thought you had your babies, I soooo wish you had your babies! I cannot even begin to imagine what you must be going through having them be yours but to be forced to miss so many of their changes. I don't get it, if they are legally yours, why must they drag their feet? Isn't it in their best interest to get them to you as soon as possible??

    So amazingly awesome seeing you at YOUR shower! I bet it was a very emotional one. You so deserve it.

    I love the nursery!!! I too love modern and have those same wooden circles.

    I can't wait to hear their names and I'm dying to see updated pics of them!

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  22. So good to hear from you, though I'll admit I secretly hoped you were thousands of miles away packing up your babies to bring home.

    I'm glad your shower was so lovely, to say you deserve it just doesn't do the phrase any justice. I really am thrilled for you.

    Love the nursery! Thanks for the pics!

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  23. Love your house, love the artwork!! And love the tree in the nursery - we have a tree too (a more traditional one) and the baby loves to look at it - I'm sure yours will too. Soon, Mama, soon. I can't wait either!!!

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  24. Such cute pics! Thanks for the update, I had been wondering how you are doing. I'm so glad your shower was wonderful! And your nursery is GORGEOUS!

    I can't wait to hear their names either and I so hope they will be home very very soon!!

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  25. ummm i loooove your house and if i ever join witness protection, im moving in. k? k.
    your title threw me, girlie.
    anxious for you to get your little ones home.
    xoxo
    lis

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  26. I've been wondering where you were hiding ;) I am so glad your shower went well and you felt the love surrounding you and your family. I can only imagine how hard it must be having held those lil babes and seen their faces, but still not having them permanently in your arms!!! Soon...soon they will be home and you will be laying them down in your fabulously decorated nursery :) xo

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  27. I love your house! I love your super mod touch and I could move right in and love every bit of it! Is your nursery stuff from Target Dwell studio? I'm a big fan, and I picked Dwell Studio for "Rocket's" nursery too! OK, I have gone overboard on my love of Mod design.

    I am so glad you had a good shower, but I'm sorry you had another shitty Mother's day....I really hope next year is everything you dreamed of!

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  28. Wonderful pics!!!! Can't wait til your wait is finally over!!

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  29. I so wish I could do ANYTHING to make this go faster for you. I can only begin to imagine and it makes my heart just hurt for you.

    Your shower and your nursery. YOUR shower and YOUR nursery make me smile. A great big giant smile. I am glad the shower was all you had hoped it would be. The comment from your sister made me tear up so I can very much see how that brought on some big tears for you.

    Your taste is beautiful. The only thing that I can think to add to that nursery are your 2 adorable babies. Oh how I hope that happens soon.

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  30. I'm so glad you had a great shower (minus the crying jag of course). I love the nursery too, so cool! I wish I could speed time up for you so your babies could enjoy it. Can't wait to hear their names!!

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  31. Now THIS is a baby shower I could have attended and not felt bad about my own situation :) I really admire your endurance and perseverance in this journey and am looking forward to next Mother's Day when you post a picture of your entire family of four!!!!!!

    Oh, and looks like your baby shower rocked!

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  32. The nursery is sooo fun! I love it! Hang in there!! I was out with my friend on Monday night and she is super super SUPER anxious as well to get their little man as well. As I understand it, their son had his doctor's appointment on May 4th and were told that they would get the call/email to go get him 10 days later. Well they got an email alright...saying that 15 documents are still outstanding! To which she freaked out because they are all complete! Ugh...she's a wreck of anxiety right now too. She and her DH ache to finally get their son. Gosh I hope really really soon for both of you! And the baby shower looked so perfect as well...hoped it was all that you imagined and more.

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  33. I just wanted to say I'm sorry it is taking so long to bring your little ones home - it must just rip your heart out. Hugs to you. I am glad you got to enjoy a shower though! Mine is coming up in 2 weeks - untraditional since she's here and will be almost 11 months old, but heck, nothing about becoming a family has been traditional yet - why start now? :-) Can't wait to see pictures of your little ones in their amazing and fantasic nursery!

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  34. I'm gonna go kick some Embassy butt.

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  35. Like everyone else, I love your style! Those are going to be some stylish, lucky babies!

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  36. PS. I didn't recognize Andrea without the Dorothy Hamil hairstyle. This one is quite nice too!

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  37. Congrats on your shower! I can't imagine what that must've felt like. And love the house -the light - the mid century aesthetic - the nursery is adorable. hoping things move ahead for you quickly.

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