Wednesday, August 31, 2011

I'm the last splash...

Today was my birthday.

It was the first one in a long time where I wasn't anxious. I wasn't thinking about the fact that I was another year older and still not a mother. I remember my 31st birthday, the year I knew I would be a mother. Hmph. That was six years ago.

But today, today I am. And it was different. It made a difference. I felt light, happy, some might say ebullient even. That heavy, heavy weight of the question--would I be a mother?--gone.

I took the babies swimming! It was glorious. I received gerbera daisies from a dear friend Gail. I did someshopping, completely alone--divine. And the night will end with a chocolate cupcake filled with a caramel mousse. Oh yes.

I leave you with these photos from my day.

41 comments:

  1. Looks and sounds perfect!!! Happy Birthday!

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  2. Happy birthday! You look so happy and beautiful - I LOVE that swimsuit. And that cupcake looks A-M-A-Z-I-N-G.

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  3. i look at those pictures and think 'one day, her children, grown up, will look at the pictures and think of what a beautiful mother they have, and feel good inside about how much they are loved'.

    congratulations on a birthday arriving with you as a mother! i was supposed to be 35, but ended up being 41 before that day came for me, and i relate to that noticeable absence of strife of 'when will this happen'... i wish this absence of strife for all of our IF friends still having birthdays that tic-toc away with no child yet.

    you look fabulous, and your children are so beautiful. this is a sweet time of life for you all! happy birthday!

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  4. Happy birthday! You look like you are having some well deserved fun!

    T

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  5. so nice to see. enjoy!

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  6. Love how happy you look with your babies. :) Happy birthday to you! Side note: where did you get your adorable bathing suit??

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  7. Awesome photos--you look so happy. So glad with birthday is filled with so much joy.

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  8. A very happy birthday to you!!! I'm so happy for the presents you have this year!!! You look great, love that swimsuit!

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  9. you're beautiful
    love to you on your birthday. it's my nana's birthday too. she is 94. you both make me smile.
    xoxo
    lis

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  10. Awesome photos! Happy Birthday, what a great way to spend it. :-)

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  11. Your day looks and sounds heavenly~~~ happy day, Mrs. MTL! Agree you are looking gorgeous in that swimsuit with smiles all around. :-)

    33 was my year I was "sure" to have a baby in my arms. Now praying our adoption happens by 38 (39?!). But it will happen.

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  12. Happy birthday! It sounds like you had a fantastic one. I love those pictures and that bathing suit is so pretty. Hope the cupcake tasted as good as it looks!

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  13. Happy birthday!! What a perfect day.
    Love the pictures, your beauty and happiness really shines through.

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  14. Happy birthday! Looks positively lovely. Like you and others, birthdays have been (still are!) hard. I'll be 37 next week, trying to become a mom since I was 33. Feels like this pursuit/quest/dream has occupied my entire 30's. Thanks for reminding us it DOES happen.

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  15. I'm not supposed to be commenting on blogs but.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY! You look totally blissed out :)

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  16. Happy Birthday and LOVE the suit! (Runningmama from More Roome in My Heart)

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  17. Happy Birthday, Momma! And you all look great! I have to agree, that suit looks terrific on you :)

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  18. Happy birthday! Happy babies! Happy mommy! Happy cupcake!!

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  19. Happy Birthday! Those photos are amazing! I love that bathing suit.

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  20. This post brings me lots of joy! And I also love that bathing suit- your family is beautiful!

    Ah! I hear you on the birthday thing- mine is 3 months from Saturday, and I have my fingers crossed for good news before then.

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  21. Happy Belated!! And check those mama guns! ;)

    I'm glad you had a good day, and I'm so happy my wish for you last year actually came true.

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  22. You look so happy and relaxed, and your babies look like they are having so much fun! Happy, happy birthday!

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  23. Happy Birthday!! You look so overjoyed in the pictures and my heart smiles for you! Sounds like you had a fantastic day and I am so happy for you!! Your babies are simply beautiful in every way! And they have a beautiful Mommy!

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  24. Sounds like a perfect birthday! May you have many, many more of those! Happy birthday!

    You look fabulous, as always! Love the suit. Love the arms- that's what lifting two sweet chubby babies does!

    B

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  25. I have watched your journey unfold over the past couple of years and nothing brings me more joy than to see these beautiful photos and to hear that you are happy, light and full of joy!

    You are my inspiration on so many levels and I wish you nothing but the best...may your many birthdays ahead be filled with happiness and carmel mousse (yummmmmm!).

    Happiest birthday wishes!!!

    P.S.... kinda dying over the cute bathing suit!

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  26. Happy Birthday!!! You look so happy and wonderful with your babies. Adorable bathing suit!!!

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  27. Happy birthday! it looks like it was a great day! (btw...love the swimsuit!!!)

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  28. Happy Birthday!! Looks like a great day!

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  29. Happy birthday! I'm glad you had a great day. That cupcake looks devine!

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  30. You look like you are just glowing with radiant beauty!! I am so glad you had a wonderful birthday! Happy Birthday!! Jules

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  31. Happy Belated Birthday!! Love the suit!! LisainSK

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  32. I finally had some time to stop by here and catch up. We definitely need to talk on the phone soon. I just wanted to say how much I love seeing these photos and how radiant you look. And like others here, love that suit! TTYS

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  33. Happy, happy belated birthday! You look so blissfully happy!

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  34. Happy birthday beautiful mamma! (Erika, DS)

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  35. First of all, happy (late) birthday! I also want you to know I love, love, love, that suit! And thirdly I have been calling them "Gerber" daisies all this time...embarassing. Tracy

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  36. Ack! So sorry that I'm so late, but Happy Belated Birthday!!! I'm thrilled to read that this birthday was so happy and full of lightness for you. Your day sounds like it was fun!

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  37. So late but happy birthday! You look happy and amazing and your kiddos are adorable.

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  38. Hi there...sorry so late, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Those pictures are beautiful! The tone of them makes me think of picture I cherish of my brother and I with my Mom. Precious moments!!!

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  39. I'm inexcusably late with this comment but happy much belated birthday!! Those pictures are incredibly gorgeous, as are you and those babies!

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