Monday, February 28, 2011

The good news had to end sometime....

See I was supposed to be posting about the new CD, and how it is off being duplicated and packaged and is almost ready to be sold.

Or about how tomorrow is the first day of March, the month we get to meet our babies in person. And go to court.

That's all true.

But it takes a tremendous backseat to the potential news that the Ethiopian courts have slowed their review of adoption court cases down drastically--from 40 per day to a mere 5.

It doesn't matter that we're already heading over there. We'll still go, and stand before a judge, and make our presence known, but that's just a formality, for us to be physically present. That doesn't mean the Ministry of Woman's Affairs processes our case the same day and forwards it on to the next phase--the US Embassy. No, it just means we will have been there. And then we'll just be in line. Waiting.

Forty to five.

Boy this feels familiar--these dramatic reduction in numbers.

Eight eggs to one fertilized.

Twenty eggs to two fertilized.

Twenty-six eggs to eight fertilized to three embryos.

World, I've been waiting long enough. And now there are two innocent and precious and perfect little babies that need the love and attention only their parents can give them and they're not getting it. And every week--every day--that is delayed is a problem.

I'm sick of things going well and then taking a dramatic turn for the worse. I've been down the road too many times and I guess I foolishly thought that part was over.

No, nothing is official, but it's all the buzz amongst potential adoptive parents right now. Everyone is panicking, everyone is wondering why? Why do we all work so hard, and wait so long, and love so much, and make all these plans (stupid stupid stupid) when we're always--ALWAYS--at the mercy of someone else?

I'm too sad to even think straight.

33 comments:

  1. Wow, this is the most frustrating news ever. I don't know what to say. It is so incredibly scary how much the process has slowed down--I know when we entered it 4 months ago, it was a very different picture than it is right now. Very different. I can't even imagine how you are coping. I'm so sorry, I wish things would just speed freaking up!!!!

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  2. I'm so sorry! This is so freaking upsetting!! Just keep sending your love to these babies and know that while it is imperitive that you see them as soon as possible, that you will have a lifetime to build your relationship with them.

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  3. I'm so sorry to hear his. There is one agency in Korea that chronically has a similar problem--less EPs than referrals--and the wait to travel keeps getting longer and longer for those families.

    I can't imagine the frustration you are feeling right now, but I really hope this is just a blip on the radar.

    Hang in there. I'll be thinking of you.

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  4. Oh honey, I'm just so, so, so, so sorry to read this. This is really hard. Sending you a whole bunch of love. xxxxx

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  5. Okay... normally I do'nt pay any attention to what the word verification says. But this time I've got to - it was only one letter away from 'persevere'. Even BLOGGER is cheering you on!

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  6. Oh I hate when numbers and bureaucracy don't behave!! Hoping this is somehow just a really stressful rumor and doesn't become official somehow!

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  7. That is so extremely frustrating!!! Those babies need you, NOW! I hope and pray that you are one of the 5!

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  8. Oh this is so awful. I'm so sorry.

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  9. Oh man... you are kidding!?!?! I am so sorry that this is happening. I'm exhausted for you and so frustrated - this should not be happening!! Will you be able to see and spend time with the babies when you go there? Will you stay there until they get to you?? Ugh.... why, oh why does this all have to be so hard?

    I am thinking about you and sending you thoughts of grace and patience... more and more patience. xoxoxo

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  10. Ugh, that just sucks. I'm sorry, and hope that your visit yields better news.

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  11. Oh Ms MTL, I'm so sorry. Hoping against hope that this is not borne out in reality. I really do feel that March will be a good month for us. And although you do not have your Twiblings home, in every possible way you can, you and Mr MTL are parenting those babies every moment of every day, right now. And I really, really do think they can feel it. Hold on xxx

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  12. I'm SO sorry. Sending hugs and prayers your way ((HUGS))

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  13. Oh gosh! I have a lump in my throat for you. I was excited for you to meet your babies and bring them home, so imagining YOUR excitement is impossible.
    People always say that IF (and now beyond) makes us very patient people; I don't think I am more patient, I think i am more anxious and just anticipate something to come crashing down on me now. I hope though in your case, patience was picked up and that you can find happiness and comfort knowing, although the lil ones won't be coming home as soon as you thought, (or maybe they will!!!) they will be coming home with you :) They have no idea the love coming their way ;)
    *HUGS* until that day comes though...

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  14. I'm sorry, this definitely sucks. We're amidst our own delays at the moment re: our referral. I can't imagine how much harder it will be after we've accepted.

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  15. Oh no, I am so sorry for you. And for those little ones who should be at home with you right now.
    How sad. I truly hope this doesn't last long and that you will bring home your babies soon.
    Thinking of you.

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  16. I am shaking my fist at the universe for you because it is not fair! Your babies are waiting for you and I hope you get them sooner than later.

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  17. i'm so sorry to read your post. i bet this feels like the all too familiar blow to the gut. the only good thing is that, in the end, you will end up with your two precious lines. i'm really hoping something changes and things move faster for you guys. hugs to you.

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  18. I want everyone that you're hearing this from to be liars. Big fat hairy liars. I know you don't just put your ear to the ground and make it up... but I wish all my wishes that it's over-stretched, over exaggerated... It can't be true.
    The thing is, this is the month that they will meet you. They will know your smell and your face, and know what it feels like to be loved beyond love for the first times in their lives. That doesn't make the system move faster, that doesn't but perfect nutrition in their bellies, and it doesn't get them home to you and to their cribs any faster. BUT... it is a huge step for them. To finally know love, and you know just as well that it's a love worth waiting for.
    PS- I so WISH that I could photo-shoot that meeting. And I think family photos in Tx is just what you need when you get back... I have a BFF in Houston and totally need to get down to see her. I should make a detour for photography's sake.... ;)

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  19. I am so very sorry to hear this news. After all you have already been through, it would be nice for some smooth sailing already. We are here to carry you through this process, even though I realize this does little ease the saddness of what is happening. I am staying hopeful for a way for this to all work out for you and your two little babies.
    sending love to you all...

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  20. Wait? What? NOOOOOOOOOO!!! I'm going to have to find an official to bribe or something. This can't be- you need your babies at home! Now! My heart is already breaking for you- as wonderfully delicious as it will be to meet them, hold them, caress their sweet little faces, smell their baby smell...you need them home, not delayed in the slow tangled paperwork web of the third world. They need to be home. It's where they belong. Praying your babies get expedited and there are no delays.
    B

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  21. No, no. I can't believe this. I want it to be different - I don't know wht else to say. Nothing I can say.

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  22. Oh no. I can't believe this. Feeling so, so sad for you right now.

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  23. Ugh!! I am so sorry! I hope that, despite what you're hearing, things keep pushing forward for you guys. I can't imagine how frustrating this must be, though! Just know you have lots of good vibes and prayers coming from all of us too :)

    I am working on a post, but yes I did run the full :) It was a fast trip but I hope we will get back up there very soon! Sorry to miss you!!

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  24. What the heck!!?? So unfair! I hope that you were near the top part of the list so you get in sooner. So frustrating and I'll keep an eye on the situation too; I'm so sorry for this bump in the road.

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  25. I've been wondering how the government would be handling the adoptions and if they would be able to proceed and I've been praying for you guys. Reading your updates, I've been scared to death for you. I know you will get your babies and I hope you get them soon...real soon. I hope going there makes them move this along faster. I am so so sorry that things are going this way. Hopefully, they are still moving along...faster than they think. Hugs.

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  26. I'm so sorry this is happening! You, Mr. MTL, and those babies deserve to be together and I hope that happens soon!!

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  27. Oh no! I can only imagine what you and the mister are feeling right now. I am so sorry you have yet another hurdle to go through. So hoping your first trip there gives you some reassurance that you will soon be with your beautiful babies.

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  28. It is so unfair the ups and downs we must experience to become parents. I am thinking of you and hoping that the courts speed up soon! I hate feeling helpless!

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  29. devastating. wish i had the words, but my heart is in pain for you.

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  30. Hi MTL, My agency just basically confirmed this, although it is not (yet) permanent, and may only be for a few weeks. Seriously, though? Don't really know what to think now. Again, I'm really, really sorry. that adoption is a roller coaster is really true--highest highs and lowest lows.

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  31. I'm sorry there is even MORE waiting. Sheesh. You'd think they'd want to do what's best for the children and have them in their permanent home asap. Hope things take a turn for the better soon.

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  32. Awww, crud. That really sucks. :(

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  33. Oh no!!! Why is this happening!! I can only hope and pray that when you get there and meet people-the powers that be--in person that somehow this will get you to the top of the list. I will keep hoping.

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